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Perhaps I am wrong…

During my research, my time laying in bed at night processing the day, or even sharing drinks with another exer from the cult, I find myself reminiscing. Any one of us exers would be lying to say that our time in Kimmie’s cult was all bad.

Just today I was looking at the picture of an instructor, which they captioned something about how excited they were to be working on the Jung SuWon testing videos and finishing them up. It gave me the perspective I had when I joined COL,  momentarily.

Let me throw out an idea here..  You like working out… Training in martial arts.. being healthy.. photography and video are fun?  Wanna play with computers?? we have those too.  It’s really a compelling scenario for many. Imagine your hobby becoming your job?  You don’t really have any marketable skills but you suddenly have a “nice title” at a computer company, with engineer attached to it.

It’s important for me to remember the reason we joined.  Kim reported to be a master of the “life force”.. Ki Energy! How awesome is that? She can teach you how to have control over yourself from the inside out… Fight human desire with self discipline…

Looking back with my 20/20 hindsight I see the dark lining to the concepts of COL…You really think with all of this Ki Energy mastery, that it will enhance your art and music. What instead you find is that you’re working 13 hours a day… You feel like your life has purpose because you are working in relative unison to “spread grandmaster’s light.”

I was in for three and a half years, and it took me another 3 of being out to ever say one negative thing about Kimmie and this cult.

The people who are in genuinely enjoy themselves. They believe they are working towards a higher purpose. Once events happen to cast doubt, or frustration.. Things can change. I have been trying to pinpoint what it was for me. I was 15 and often feel that my adolescent hormonal desires led me out.. But there was a lot of things. The abuse that I witnessed; My traveling to a foreign country and gaining a perspective about my COL world; another boy being publicly berated over the possibility that he was not a heterosexual; every COL member being publicly berated over masturbation in COL class.

I look at events that happened and recognize small turning points in how I felt about Kim.

One interesting one was one time I stayed at my dad’s for the weekend. He worked cash jobs and had a wad of 50’s and 100’s in the bathroom. Knowing that my mom often didn’t have lunch money for me at school, I took it upon myself to take $50 from my father without asking.. For lunch… I was embarrassed to ask because I knew it would reflect poorly on Kim, who I held protectively.

My dad dropped me off at Lighthouse, and gave me a $50 bill and said it’s for me and whatever I need… I suspect he knew I took the first 50, and gave me the second knowing I was ashamed to have to steal from him. This event really stuck with me. I believe it eventually drove me out. The fact that I could not rely on my mother or Tae Yun Kim to provide me a meal.. But that I knew my dad could…

Like I started… perhaps I have it all wrong?  I think COLers are genuinely happy, until they’re not.. I don’t even think they could be diagnosed as depressed in COL, because of the high they exhibit.

Ignorance is bliss.

Politics in your pocket

My mother was given money and asked to give it to Mike Honda for Congress in 2001 by Tae Yun Kim and her associates. Apparently a lot of other people to.  This helped circumvent federal election laws. These are people who make close to nothing. But somehow they have $500-$1000 each to support Mike Honda. My mom has bank evidence to prove this. In the past she has supported Milpitas Mayor and Santa Clara County Supervisor Pete McHugh, having them as guests of honor during testings and other events. Here is what I have found thus far towards Mike Honda’s campaign.

I am not saying that all of these people had the same experience my mother did, only that it is likely. These people were all associated with Jung SuWon/COL at the time of their donation.

TAE YUN KIM
chairman & ceo
lighthouse worldwide services
Q2-2011
$1,000 donation to mike honda for congress
TAE YUN KIM
chairman/ceo
lighthouse worldwide services
Q1-2011
$500 donation to mike honda for congress
TAE YUN KIM
chairman/ceo
lighthouse worldwide services
Q1-2010
$1,800 donation to mike honda for congress
TAE YUN KIM
chairman/ceo
lighthouse worldwide services
Q1-2010
$600 donation to mike honda for congress
TAE YUN KIM
chairman/ceo
lighthouse worldwide services
Q2-2009
$1,800 donation to mike honda for congress
PAUL NEWMAN
executive director of sales
lighthouse worldwide solutions
Q2-2010
$1,500 donation to mike honda for congress
SCOTT SALTON
president
lighthouse worldwide solutions
Q2-2010
$1,400 donation to mike honda for congress
SCOTT SALTON
manager
lighthouse worldwide solutions
Q1-2010
$1,000 donation to mike honda for congress
ERIKA SOMMERS
executive assistant
lighthouse worldwide solutions
Q2-2010
$1,000 donation to mike honda for congress
THOMAS SAUNDERS
senior vp
lighthouse worldwide solutions
Q2-2010
$1,000 donation to mike honda for congress
ROCCO POCHY
vice president
lighthouse worldwide solutions
Q2-2010
$500 donation to mike honda for congress

Adam Giandomenico (Morning Planet/President), (Zip code: 95035) $1000 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Mark Amador (Can Do Spirit Inc./Manager), (Zip code: 95035) $1000 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Michael Fell (Jung Su Won/President), (Zip code: 95035) $1000 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Sarah Kim (Lighthouse Worldwide Services/CRM), (Zip code: 95035) $1000 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Juliana ONeil (Can Do Spirit Inc./Product Manager), (Zip code: 95035) $700 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Rocco Pochy (LWS/Engineer), (Zip code: 95035) $1000 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Thomas Saunders (Angel Healing/Executive), (Zip code: 95035) $1000 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Erika Sommers (Executive Producer), (Zip code: 95035) $1000 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Kristina Williams (Lighthouse Worldwide Services/Manag), (Zip code: 95035) $1000 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Sean Birch (Lighthouse Worldwide Services/Vice), (Zip code: 95035) $500 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Kevin Michael Campbell (Lighthouse Worldwide Solutions/Dire), (Zip code: 95035) $500 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Candice Carrington (Apple Tours/Travel Agent), (Zip code: 95035) $550 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Holly Chamberlain (Lighthouse Worldwide Services/Engin), (Zip code: 95035) $500 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Morgan W. Polen (Lighthouse Worldwide Services/Busin), (Zip code: 95035) $1000 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 01/18/02

Gregory Dumas (None/Retired), (Zip code: 95035) $450 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Karen Heart (Lighthouse Worldwide Solutions/Sale), (Zip code: 95035) $500 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Joy Henderson (Melrose Nameplate/Supervisor), (Zip code: 95035) $500 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Paul Newman (Morning Planet/Sales), (Zip code: 95035) $500 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Manju Raj (Spike Technologies/Engineer), (Zip code: 95035) $500 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Michael Thomas (Lighthouse Worldwide Services/Engin), (Zip code: 95035) $500 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Joseph Weinstein (Lighthouse Worldwide Services/VP), (Zip code: 95035) $750 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Hope Winter (Lighthouse Worldwide Solutions/Acco), (Zip code: 95035) $500 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Cheryl Woo (Northstar LLC/Operations Director), (Zip code: 95035) $500 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 12/28/01

Clark Anderson (Lighthouse Worldwide Services/Engin), (Zip code: 95035) $1000 to MIKE HONDA FOR CONGRESS on 02/04/02

There were a lot of  duplicates, which i tried to remove, but in some cases they were different amounts, so i left those in.
All of this information was obtained from :

http://fundrace.huffingtonpost.com/neighbors.php?type=emp_or_occ&emp=Lighthouse+Worldwide+Solutions

http://fundrace.huffingtonpost.com/neighbors.php?type=name_address&lat=37.4832820000&oldest=1&lng=-121.9423270000&lname=Kim&fname=Tae+Yun

http://www.city-data.com/elec2/elec-MILPITAS-CA.html

One of many lawsuits…

Way back when in 1995 Kim was sued by an Image of lawsuit opening blockex-student. Summarizing briefly a former student sued Tae Yun Kim, COL, Jung SuWon and Lighthouse  for fraud and essentially taking a 1.2 million dollar inheritance. In it the plaintiff claims Kim arranged name changes, purchased homes with the monies, and charged her for working for her… about $800 a month to work at lighthouse for career training.

Read on!

Link to 1995 lawsuit

Tae Yun Kim Inside Edition Video from 1998

A DMCA COMPLAINT WAS MADE AGAINST THIS ARTICLE WITHIN 24 HOURS OF IT’S POSTING. UNFORTUNATELY THE LINK TO THE VIDEO HAS BEEN REMOVED

 

I have received several emails about this today, and after much searching I have found what you are looking for!  The Inside Edition video of Jung SuWon, Tae Yun Kim, covering the COL cult of Fremont, California.

Update: I uploaded it to a site so you can download it.

I found it, out there on an obscure internet site.

 

In 1998 Matt Maher of Inside Edition did the first televised investigation that I am aware of.  This is it! It covers several students of  Jung SuWon and the concerns their family had.  Unfortunately like most investigations by Tabloid TV it didn’t have good closure. Kim is asked “are you a cult”.  Download and enjoy!

Please keep in mind, as the video states, this is for home viewing only.

Inside Edition Video: Trying to find it

I am trying to find my electronic copy of the inside edition video from 1998, so I can let you all look at it. It’s not quite eye opening, but it is validating.

Summer 1995

In the Summer of 1995, I still lived at home with my mother.  I had become great friends with Patrick.  We were invited to pretty much every COL event that wasn’t a negative one.  This means all exciting stuff.  Pool BBQ’s at Kim’s house, checking out new mansions with Kim’s crew. At one of the places Patrick and I found a frog near a pond on the property. Now we had a shared pet.  He came over and spent the night at our place 1-2 times a week all summer.

Mid July at a Korean restaurant in Sunnyvale something big happened.  We were invited to join COL.  We had a discussion about, and I was all to elated to be moving in with the brother I always wanted.

No one comes out and says “Hey do you want to join a cult?”  It unfortunately just doesn’t happen. Cult members are great at faking happy.  Making it seem like everything is good.  Because they are happy, but its just a facade.  Down deep there is unhappiness that manifests itself in different ways. However, somewhere deep inside me, I had a bad feeling.  Patrick warned me about how hard it was, on the way to a San Jose SaberCats game with another member, Joe.  Joe unfortunately overheard this, and subsequently reported it to Kim.

My first real censuring, was being brought into Kim’s office at Jung SuWon with Patrick.  There both Patrick and I were confronted  about situation where Patrick briefly warned me.  This was my first warning… Everyone was a rat, and not really happy.

I wish I could remember what Patrick said to me.

In August 1995 we moved in.

I am going to try and build in the framework of my time, and then dive in to certain events, as they come to me. I was in the cult until 1999, however my mother was until 2003.  This blog will cover my time on the outside trying to recover my mother from the group as well.

Meeting

The week of February 2nd, 1995, I attended Kim’s Birthday Party.  It was held at her Jung SuWon Martial Art Academy, at 107 Minnis Circle, in Milpitas, California. A large Yin Yang was view able from Milpitas Boulevard, despite the building being set back from the road by several hundred feet. The school was located behind the “new” Milpitas Police Department.  I am sure the irony is not lost on many of the Police Officers.

My mom was dating a man at the time, whose brother trained with Tae Yun Kim, at the school.  So we often heard ancillary banter about her.  We apparently received our invite to go to the party through his brother, so we all went.

This was the first time I was to meet Tae Yun.  It was her 50th Birthday party.  However I believe that Koreans count you as being 1 when you are born.  As in, this is your first year on Earth, so you are 1.  So by American counting it was her 49th.  I had trained in martial arts for probably two years at two different schools.  This school was much different.  It was large, and elegant.  Even though it was in an industrial park, across the street from Target Masters gun range, it was nice.  You were greeted by a nice lobby, and locker rooms.  There was a conference room style all glass door into the dojang. The floor was raised up off of the hard cement by about a foot, in order to create resilience.  This was a nice place!

Chairs were lined up in front for the “guests.” Kim’s students, which most of them were in suits instead of the usual martial arts uniform, were spattered throughout, none sitting, most standing and talking with the guests.  My memory of this event isn’t great.  I just recall some strange singing, songs about Kim. A lot of unnecessary clapping. A banging asian style drum to add drama to anything that was happening.  One thing that made me a little upset, having been a long time martial artist, is that I was overlooked when she was looking for wood breaking volunteers at the end.  I was 12, breaking a board sounded awesome.  At my last school they used plastic, pre-broken boards.

I was left with a sour taste in my mouth.  It all seemed too “good” I communicated to my mom that everything felt a little plasticized.  She recounted to me that my grandfather, had spoke negatively of her before.  He felt that she was a fraud.  My grandpa mostly gleaned this information from his rather chauvinistic Korean master (who I had also trained with). So it was taken with a healthy dose of salt.

My mom asked me if I was interested in joining, I told her probably not. I had a little chub going, though I had grown out of some of my childhood chubbiness at this point.  I think parents often say “he grew into himself”. I was in need of physical activity however.  I spent most of my days working on my nerd adventures.  I was a hacker.  Maybe not a cool kind, more of what is now referred to as a script kiddie.  I logged onto BBS’s and social engineered my way into getting more free time on them, as they mostly limited you to 30 minutes a day.  My mothers famous quote about my adventures was “what could I ever possibly need an e-mail address for?” But alas I enjoyed myself using what was then a  very rudimentary internet.

At some point my mom convinced me to go to Jung SuWon, and just watch. I don’t think she had the same reservations as I with Kim.  She reminded me they had a computer company.  Perhaps they would let me work there in the summer?

One way or another she convinced me to go.  I believe that the first time I just watched.  She went in for the intro class.  I sat and watched from the lobby.  I was not entirely convinced of the situation.  However their company, Lighthouse Associates, had some draw for me.  I wanted what companies had.  Fast computers, free internet (that I didn’t have to social engineer to get more of), the ability to use a computer and phone simultaneously.  Obviously these are things we all take for granted these days.

When in the lobby, a boy came out from the locker room.  He had just finished up in the previous class.  I looked at him and his face looked about my age, however he was diminutive in comparative size. His name was Patrick.  We talked and talked.  Well I talked a lot, and he listened.  He was awesome.  He liked computers.  He’s in, shoot, I’m in!  Next thing you know I’m in my intro class, and by the end of sixth grade two months later, I’m a full time student.

Who I am

My name is Jacob. However since I was in a cult, this was not the name I was born with.

I was in a cult in the San Francisco Bay area from ages 12 to 15.  From 1995 to 1999, I was the member of Tae Yun Kim’s Jung SuWon Martial Art Academy, and City of light group. I will make every effort to not link to her sites, but instead to allow you to find them on your own.

My mother was the facilitating factor in this.  We made the decision together, but obviously as a 12 year old, she was the real decider.

It’s been a long path to this blog.  I never even spoke to my family about the group until 2003.  I only started speaking out, due to the fact that I was trying to help my mom escape.  In 2004 I started posting around the internet using anonymous names.  In 2005, about 7 years ago I posted as Clarehoare on Bullshido.net. That post changed everything.

Now, 7 years later, here I am.  I am going to do my best to tell my story, and add as much information as I can.

I think it’s going to be interesting.

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